How Psychedelic Mushrooms Saved My Life
It all began when I was having troubles in my marriage.
After graduating from college, I got married to my girlfriend at the time and we moved overseas to Germany. Problems began happening almost right away. You see, I became a different person almost overnight... My now-Wife felt trapped in a new situation with a person that she felt she no longer recognized. It was as if I had transformed from a kind, well-meaning, and relatively "put together" person into a scared child practically in the blink of an eye. Over the course of a few weeks, I became increasingly selfish, self-centered, and borderline neglectful of my partner. Alone in a new country, she felt helpless.
I blamed my new job.
I thought it was all the fault of this 9-5 lifestyle that "forced" me to wakeup early, go to a job that I hated, and come home frustrated. I blamed everyone but myself. At the end of every day at the office, I would come home to my Wife in a terrible mood and take out my frustrations on the relationship. Typically, I would either come home and rant about my day or I would just stew silently while she made an attempt to have a good time and a "normal" relationship with her husband. Over time, she began to speak up about what was happening and how she felt. When she told me, I felt terrible. I felt like I had wounded the most important person in my life.
I would promise to change and then immediately go back to the same pattern.
I would make excuses for why we did not have a good sexual relationship.
I would constantly think of myself, my own needs, and not even realize what emotional support looked like in a relationship.
It wouldn't change until I found the Psychedelic Mushroom and began to journey into the psychedelic world regularly... This is what saved my life.
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